Trust

Love. It has ups and downs.. The scary part is you never know what to expect. Even in the world's greatest love story there is a twist. A conflict. A change in emotion. I find myself fearing the conflict. Some may say it is insecurity.. I say its experience. In my life I have been through relationship issues that have made me fear things. The experiences I have been through have caused anxiety in relationships to follow. It isnt fair to blame new loves for things the old loves are guilty of.. But saying it and following through with it are two completely different things. I know it is wrong, yet I do it. I try to catch my new boyfriend doing things I know my ex would have attempted. The new boyfriend would never do anything to jepordize our relationship. However, the fear is still present. I guess in life we learn and we remember. We learn that people we love have the opportunity to hurt us. Big Time. They have a chance to break our hearts or protect it. Sometimes they chose to hurt it. They break hearts for many different reasons I suppose... No matter the reason. It hurts all the same. We remember. We remember how it happen and try to prevent it from ever happening again. We also remember how it felt. We remember the tears, pain, and sleepless nights. Its those memories that give us the fear whenever someone new comes along. The fact of the matter is that we are all human and we all do this. It doesnt make you crazy. However, we must take a risk. We must ignore that anxiety and trust. You must never let fear keep you from experiencing something as great as love. If you let fear take flight you could lose someone very special. Sometimes its ok to go against your gut feeling..