The Glow

The wind softly catches my hair
sun blazes through my tinted sunglasses
my skin absorbing its beauty.
The water around me glistens softly
as if painting a picture with its cool contrasts
At that moment,
I feel more than the wind
than the sun
I feel a look.
A glance from behind me
the feeling quickly overwhelms me
the feeling more beautiful than the waves or rays
The look takes me back
to the first time i looked
the first time i really saw
felt
the first time i realized how much i loved that look
the first time i felt loved
I glance over my shoulders to see the owner of the gazers
owner of the glance
one responsible for the feeling that is consuming my thoughts
I see him
his brought browns
looking at me
sending me that smile
that one look is all I need
I turn back around
and for once I show the sun how I can glow.
Making it jealous

Distance

Seems like in my life I fall too quickly or too hard. Sometimes when we fall its the best thing you could imagine. Just knowing that your falling and someone else is ready to catch you can be the best feeling in the world. Especially when you never thought you would feel that again, ever. You knew you would always find someone to be content with but never thought you would find that can't sit still, can't sleep, anxiously waiting feeling. The feeling when you are driving to see them and you feel like you cant get there fast enough! You speed not caring that the cop is passing you. You take the risk. Jump at chance of seeing them as soon as possible.
I personally never thought I would feel this again. After what I experienced almost 6 months ago. I built a wall so tall that even the people I knew deserved to be in were locked out. I wasn't happy. The smallest things would make me so angry. For instance, the car that pulled out in my lane or the way my mother wakes me up at seven in the morning to take the dog out. But since I met this new person. I wake up at seven to take the dog out without being asked. Sometimes I even say good morning to my mom or talk to the baby while he watches cartoons. I laugh at the crazy old lady that pulled out in front of my car. I can even laugh at the people that let that poor old lady ruin there whole work day. Whats even better about finally feeling this again is knowing that he feels the same way.
The only catch is that he lives an hour away. I've made my share of trips up there to see him but it isn't easy to find the gas money or the time. He leaves July 10 for Louisiana to live for school. Then our distance is going to be further. We know we shouldn't end things just because of distance. It just gets so frustrating, but i can't give up on a good thing. I'm not ready to let go of this happiness.