Distance

Seems like in my life I fall too quickly or too hard. Sometimes when we fall its the best thing you could imagine. Just knowing that your falling and someone else is ready to catch you can be the best feeling in the world. Especially when you never thought you would feel that again, ever. You knew you would always find someone to be content with but never thought you would find that can't sit still, can't sleep, anxiously waiting feeling. The feeling when you are driving to see them and you feel like you cant get there fast enough! You speed not caring that the cop is passing you. You take the risk. Jump at chance of seeing them as soon as possible.
I personally never thought I would feel this again. After what I experienced almost 6 months ago. I built a wall so tall that even the people I knew deserved to be in were locked out. I wasn't happy. The smallest things would make me so angry. For instance, the car that pulled out in my lane or the way my mother wakes me up at seven in the morning to take the dog out. But since I met this new person. I wake up at seven to take the dog out without being asked. Sometimes I even say good morning to my mom or talk to the baby while he watches cartoons. I laugh at the crazy old lady that pulled out in front of my car. I can even laugh at the people that let that poor old lady ruin there whole work day. Whats even better about finally feeling this again is knowing that he feels the same way.
The only catch is that he lives an hour away. I've made my share of trips up there to see him but it isn't easy to find the gas money or the time. He leaves July 10 for Louisiana to live for school. Then our distance is going to be further. We know we shouldn't end things just because of distance. It just gets so frustrating, but i can't give up on a good thing. I'm not ready to let go of this happiness.