Life

I threw this together.. Nothing special.. Just some blogging :) to get the juices flowing.

Daily life is chaotic.
Its hypocritical.
Wanting and Hating.
Everyone wanting
things they cant have
wishing.
Wishing for something more.
Perhaps a rain shower in the drought
a snow fall in the month of may
the impossible.
we seek it.
search and wish for it
A field of sunflowers on a sunny May afternoon never cross our minds
we dont wish to see it
for it is present
overlooked
yet, its beauty is remarkable
Stop.
Stop wishing.
Stop wanting.
Stop seeking.
Look.
Open your eyes to the beauty we have
love, family, flowers, and friends
seek the possible
Our creator would want us to feast on this
breathe.
endure.
Its possible.

I challenge you to take a moment and enjoy the life you have! Stop worrying about where you were or where you are headed. Just stop. Celebrate you at this moment in time. Or your life will be spent wishing and wanting instead of living.

Trust

Love. It has ups and downs.. The scary part is you never know what to expect. Even in the world's greatest love story there is a twist. A conflict. A change in emotion. I find myself fearing the conflict. Some may say it is insecurity.. I say its experience. In my life I have been through relationship issues that have made me fear things. The experiences I have been through have caused anxiety in relationships to follow. It isnt fair to blame new loves for things the old loves are guilty of.. But saying it and following through with it are two completely different things. I know it is wrong, yet I do it. I try to catch my new boyfriend doing things I know my ex would have attempted. The new boyfriend would never do anything to jepordize our relationship. However, the fear is still present. I guess in life we learn and we remember. We learn that people we love have the opportunity to hurt us. Big Time. They have a chance to break our hearts or protect it. Sometimes they chose to hurt it. They break hearts for many different reasons I suppose... No matter the reason. It hurts all the same. We remember. We remember how it happen and try to prevent it from ever happening again. We also remember how it felt. We remember the tears, pain, and sleepless nights. Its those memories that give us the fear whenever someone new comes along. The fact of the matter is that we are all human and we all do this. It doesnt make you crazy. However, we must take a risk. We must ignore that anxiety and trust. You must never let fear keep you from experiencing something as great as love. If you let fear take flight you could lose someone very special. Sometimes its ok to go against your gut feeling..